I'm Late I'm Late...

Time is an issue for me. I currently run by the minute. It takes me 7 minutes to drive to my daughter's gymnastics, I have 10 minutes until I need to leave, 5 minutes to pick up the kids, 13 minutes to get to work. And so on.... I hate running late and I definitely hate being late. I think I have an internal clock that tells me when time is up. My heart rate increases, my breathing gets faster, and my mind can't focus. I think it might be a disorder. Can yoga help me with this? 

Well, I hope so! As I have been working on my personal yoga practice I have found that what I think should take me an hour turns out to only take me 40 minutes. I think I am spending a good amount of time moving through poses only to find out I have rushed it every time. Why do I rush everything? Do I just not know how to be in the moment? 

Here is what I have found from pondering over this dilemma: 

• We live in a fast paced world- no duh- and this has made me feel like slowing down means I am going to miss something.
• I have tied strength with moving faster than others
• I like to move fast. 
• Rushing is preventing me from really connecting with my practice.
• I am missing out on the power of breathing through asanas. 
• I have a harried mind that won't just focus on what is happening.
• Time is irrelevant

So my goal is to study out the movement and permit myself to move slow. I do mini tests while driving. Can I drive behind this slow car instead of changing lanes to get around them? Truthfully, I only make it about 10 minutes. It's progress. Maybe next week I will make it to 15 minutes.  Daily yoga is helping. I am starting in my Savasana. Really being in the present moment. Allowing my mind to relax and not stress about what is coming next. It's getting easier, but I am still telling myself to stop watching the clock. One day....one day I will live in the moment. For now, I just want to make it though one class without rushing!

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